Sans any major happening in the next 4 days, It’s safe to say that I’ve seen everything 2009 has to offer. 2009 has evolved into a bittersweet year. It started out for me with sadness and grief brought upon the untimely death of a friend and a colleague (actually the biggest supporter of my writing-grammatical errors and all) , 2009 also carried over the remaining 2 months of 2008 into happiness and unto the first 9 months of 2009 when things fell apart and I just dismissed all kinds of resuscitation as wasted energy.
Personally, that failure to again carry a relationship past the 365th day and beyond had yet again put a dent on an already long record of shortcomings. I know some reasons why, mostly on my part, sometimes the situations wont allow it and for this matter a lot else played roles in keeping the streak alive (not a cause for celebration).
They say “familiarity breeds contempt”, I can attest that no contempt or hatred sprung from my last relationship, the latter just evolved after the parting of ways, blame game usually follows each break-ups. People took sides, her friends to mine. In the end I was left with myself and countless set of eyes looking at my back with disgust.
I can’t blame them as I’d do the same if someone hurt my friend. I’ll side with my friend all the time. However, the best way for me to do is keep my mouth shut and just let things settle on its own course. “Time heal all sorts of dogbites” as they say.
Personally, I still maintained great relationship with my family. My brother and I are still close as ever, agreeing on certain matters from climate change to politics and to what Manny Pacquiao’s strategy would be in case he faces Floyd Mayweather in the ring come March 14th.
My few close friends, albeit far and beyond still manages to keep in touch through facebook and ym, Jacobsladder is still in Dubai, Don Rudieboy is just around Marikina and Project 3, while a few tied the knot and are also working abroad.
So that left me with most part of 2009 being with someone and on my own. I’ve seen parts of the Philippines I never thought I’d step foot into. Davao, Coron, Palawan, Cebu, Bohol and the Rice Terraces of Banaue.
These places are like the jumpers of Kobe and the windmill dunks of Lebron, they occupied the top spots on my 2009 highlight reels.
Career-wise. I’m just glad to have a job that pays alright. I made the mistake of sending out an email (sent to all) regarding my resignation, which my kind boss allowed me to talk it over, giving me time to realize that it’s a bonehead decision on my part. To make it short, I looked like a fool, but the company welcomed me back to its fold.
I learned from that experience that, when it comes to feeling emotional and confused, drop everything and let your mind gather on its own. Do not react, do not compose an email, do not even pick up your phone so you wont end up sending out a curse filled outburst SMS to random people.
Just remember that kid in you, when you were forced to stand in a corner and face the wall whenever tantrums gets in your way.
2010 is just around the bend. I remember the days leading up to year 2000 and all those talk about the millennium bug. Today, the talk heading to the new year would be the climate change, the 2012 end of the world (for the doomsayers) and the more plausible, the 2 degrees Celsius increase in world’s temperature by 2015.
Sometimes I wonder if we’re all doomed and that by having children today is a good thing? knowing you’re just bringing them in a world set for its end of days. I guess it’s a bit extreme to think about that. Having babies is still the best thing that’ll happen to anyone.
I have a few friends who have welcomed their bundle of joy this year. I might be the adventure seeking always on the go kind of person, the backpacking fanatic who can drop everything and hop into a plane, bus or boat to somewhere (provided I have some money) but maybe, deep inside me, I aspire to be that person who goes home at the end of a boring, hard days work at the office, to a home where I’ll be greeted by a giggling sound of laughter coming from bouncing baby girl or boy.
But, I guess, that aint happening for at least a few more years. It’s still “cheesy” to think of that right now. :P
Regardless of everything, I have plans to make on how to live my life in the next year and beyond and 2010 will just be another year to make do of what I’ve got, go to places I’ve never been before, try something different, take risks and hopefully somewhere along the way I will discover what’s wrong with me and connect the dots and give my self another shot at my previous failures.
And that include another shot at hitting the lottery jackpot.
Also, I got my dog Jack at this time last year, so 2009 is basically a full year he had with us. Another thing to be thankful about. A dog, indeed is a “man’s best friend”.